My Everything by Heidi McLaughlin

myeverything_322x500When Nick Ashford lost his friend, Mason, he didn’t realize he was going to lose his family as well, but that’s exactly what happened.

Alone and in a foreign country, Nick is working on rebuilding his life one patient at a time, that is, until a striking volunteer makes her presence known.

Can Nick finish his year in Africa without risking his heart being broken again?

Or is he willing to start a new chapter in his life before his return to Beaumont?

 

 

 

 

 

review

“You make all the ugly in this world seem just a bit better when I close my eyes at night…”

Just like the first book in the Beaumont series, a second chance at love is the key theme of this companion novella to Forever My Girl. Nick Ashford was the ‘collateral damage’ in Josie and Liam’s story, a man who wished nothing more than to have a family of his own, but ended up losing both the woman he loved as well as the boy he considered and raised as his own son. He walked out of their lives a broken man, heartbroken and betrayed, and in order to distance himself from the constant reminder of what could have been his but now would never be, he left Beaumont and went to Africa to work as a volunteer.

“I needed to volunteer. I needed to feel as if my life meant something.”

We find Nick in a small clinic in the middle of Africa, doing what he does best – helping people. His living conditions are very modest and his working conditions very basic, but this simplicity helps him put things into perspective and re-evaluate the life he left behind. Flashback memories of Josie, Noah and their time together haunt him, keep replaying in his mind and hurting him over and over again. He regrets not fighting for his family and giving up on them too easily, but while his love for Josie slowly fades away, his guilt over leaving Noah behind without so much as an explanation, the boy he raised with her for six years and loved as his own, never does. His conscience burns and gives him no relief.

“Memories. That is all I have from the last six years.”

This is where Nick meets Aubrey, a young volunteer working as a nurse in his clinic. Nick is immediately attracted to her, but cautious not to get involved with her due to the limited nature of his stay in Africa. However, life is full of surprises and Nick is not only given a chance to love again, but to experience the kind of love he’s never felt before.

“When I look at her, I know what true love feels like. It’s the butterflies you get every time that person walks into the room or you get a whiff of their perfume from another room.”

When Nick finally returns to Beaumont, he has to face the ghosts he’s left behind and finally accept that the life he’s been grieving might have never been his in the first place. But his biggest challenge is rebuilding a relationship with the one he hurt the most with his sudden departure – Noah. This is a beautiful and very emotional, albeit too short for this greedy book junkie, story of finding one’s true happiness in life, letting go of a past that holds us behind and moving forward without looking back.

My only objection is that the intimate scenes between Nick and Aubrey could and should have been less fade-to-black and more detailed, more personal. It would have added an extra layer to the special connection between these two characters and given us a further, more vivid example of the unique attachment being woven between them. It should also be noted that this story should not be read without first reading Forever My Girl as it is a continuation of those events and I do not feel that the reader would get to experience the full depth of emotions that this story brings without knowing the background storyline.

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BLOG TOUR: Forever My Girl by Heidi McLaughlin

forevermygirlI was never supposed to be a rock star. I had my life all planned out for me. Play football in college. Go to the NFL. Marry my high school sweetheart and live happily ever after.

I broke both our hearts that day when I told her I was leaving. I was young. I made the right decision for me, but the wrong decision for us.

I’ve poured my soul into my music, but I’ve never forgotten her.

Her smell, her smile.

And now I’m going back.

After ten years.

I hope I can explain that after all this time.

I still want her to be my forever girl.

 

review

“Hey, Jojo?” he yells.
“Yeah.” I yell back.
“I’m going to marry you someday.”

Some people find their dream early on in life, some never do, and some sacrifice everything to capture it. Liam found his dream in the first semester of college, a dream that cost him everything he cared for, including the woman he desperately loved.

Growing up in a strict patriarchal family, the only child of a man who had very clear ideas about what his son’s future should look like, and of a woman who gave up her own dreams to become someone’s silent trophy wife, Liam was given a non-negotiable path to follow, expectations to meet, and an enormous amount of pressure to become the man they all thought he should become. But no one ever asked Liam what he dreamed of becoming one day.

Josie was the girl he fell in love with in high school. She was his best friend. She was his first and only love. She was the girl he left behind to pursue a dream. Stuck on a path that he did not see as his own, Liam sacrificed the one he loved the most to save himself from becoming something he hated, all along knowing that he could never be the man everyone, including Josie, wanted him to be. He suddenly cut ties with everyone in his life and moved away to prove to himself that he could become someone else. His career as a musician quickly took off and he spent the next ten years torn between the dream he was fulfilling and the ache in his heart always reminding him of the one he left behind. He wrote songs about her, channelling his loneliness and heartbreak over losing her into his music. His life changed, he found fame, but his feelings for his “Jojo” never faded, frozen in time and forever tormenting him.

“I may be successful when I’m on stage, but at night I’m alone.”

And then one day life took him back to the very place he ran away from.

Josie spent the past ten years trying to ignore the hole in her heart caused by Liam’s sudden departure. For years she felt abandoned and discarded, believing that the only man she ever loved no longer wanted her or any reminder of what they once shared. She eventually rebuilt her life, moved on, never expecting one day for her past to just walk into her shop, for the boy who stole her heart to come back and be still in love with her.

“I went right to your shop and waited. I watched for you and once I saw you, I knew I was going to end up chasing my girl, waiting for you to turn around and see… the real me and love me for who I am and not what I did to you. I’m standing in front of you, Josie. You just have to turn around.”

This is an utterly moving story of second chances in life, of redemption, remorse, forgiveness, of loves lost and found again, of trust regained. Through alternating points of view, we feel both Liam and Josie’s emotions, fears, and sorrow. These are well-developed characters whose love for each other survived time and distance. They naturally gravitate towards each other, unable to fight the pull and incapable of forgetting the future they once dreamed of sharing. When faced with what they could have had, Liam and Josie must decide whether they could still mend what is broken or whether life has just become too complicated to change. Nothing is rushed, the storyline progressing at a pleasant pace that keeps the reader both glued to the pages as well as more and more invested in the ending.

When two people spend ten years convincing themselves they can be apart, sometimes the best cure is to be reminded of why they felt in love in the first place.

“My palms sweat. My body is flushed. I open my eyes and stare at the woman in the mirror. Staring back is a girl I once knew, one that shined and sparkled every time she was about to go see her boyfriend. This girl looks happy.”

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The Series

This is the first book in The Beaumont Series by a brilliant new indie author. There are eight books planned in the series, one of which will be a novella for Josie and Liam, and one will be ten years before when we’ll get to meet Mason and find out more about Liam’s life as a teenager. Out of these eight books, three will be YA/MA books, Noah’s one being the first. We’ll get to see Noah at 19!!

The Author

heidi mclaughlin picMy grandma once told me that I can do anything I want, so I am.

Originally from the Pacific Northwest, I now live in picturesque Vermont, with my husband and two daughters. Also renting space in our home is an overhyper Beagle/Jack Russell and two Parakeets.

During the day you’ll find me behind a desk talking about Land Use. At night, I’m writing one of the many stories I plan to release or sitting courtside during either daughter’s basketball games.

I’m also an active reviewer on The Readiacs – a site I own with my best friend and über special beta, Yvette.

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